December 14, 2004
Today I went to the Doc’s and got my testosterone shot. I feel blessedly "normal." The doc also gave me meds to get me through until my appointment with ADAP, the Aids Drug Assistance Program that will cover my AIDS med costs.
On the way back I splurged on a book. David Sedaris’ new bestseller "Dress Your Family in Corduroy and Denim." Actually, for me, David Sedaris is not a luxury, he’s a necessity. So what if people look at you funny while you laugh hysterically on the bus.
I concluded long ago that what keeps me sane, even during the insanity, is laughter. This was reinforced by the AA meeting tonight, where the speaker was particularly brilliant. [I originally described this person, than realized that perhaps I was violating the precept of "everything that is heard in these rooms stays in these rooms." So that's all I'll say.]
My only problem tonight with the 12-steps is the use of the pronoun "him" for God. It would be so refreshing if someone said "her," if only to remind that God is neither him or her. I was describing to my sister a definition I heard Beth Nielsen Chapman on NPR. She said "I see humanity as a diamond, and God as light. Each part of the diamond sees such brilliance that it thinks its conception is the truest, the realest. They are all just experiencing the same light, from their own vantage point."
Amen.
MCO 2004
hey marc!
it's your lovely neice daniella. i'm up at 4am studying for finals and just wanted to say hi before i go to bed. can't wait to see you!